Out of the Abortionist's Mouth the Heart Speaks

Abortionists are threatened by informed consent. They’re traumatized by the limp body parts they look at every day. They’re torn by the contradiction that they became doctors to preserve life but use their profession to end it. Here are some eye-opening confessions from current and former abortionists.

“They [the women] are never allowed to look at the ultrasound because we knew that if they so much as heard the heart beat, they wouldn’t want to have an abortion.” (Dr. Randall, former abortionist)

“Even now I feel a little peculiar about it, because as a physician I was trained to conserve life, and here I am destroying it.” (Dr. Benjamin Kalish, abortionist)

“You have to become a bit schizophrenic. In one room, you encourage the patient that the slight irregularity in the fetal heart is not important, that she is going to have a fine, healthy baby. Then, in the next room you assure another woman, on whom you just did a saline abortion, that it is a good thing that the heartbeat is already irregular… she has nothing to worry about, she will NOT have a live baby… All of a sudden one noticed that at the time of the saline infusion there was a lot of activity in the uterus. That’s not fluid currents. That’s obviously the fetus being distressed by swallowing the concentrated salt solution and kicking violently and that’s to all intents and purposes, the death trauma… somebody has to do it, and unfortunately we are the executioners in this instance.” (Dr. John Szenes, abortionist)

“Telling those women their fetuses feel pain is heaping torment upon torment. These women have real pain. They did not come to this decision easily. Creating another barrier for them to get the medical care they need is really unfair.” (Abortionist Dave Turok)

 “This is why I hate overuse of forceps – things tear. There are only two kinds of doctors who have never perforated a uterus, those that lie and those who don’t do abortions.” (Anonymous Abortionist)

“I got to where I couldn’t stand to look at the little bodies anymore.” (Dr. Beverly McMillan, former abortionist)

“I think in many ways I’ve been lucky to have been part of this. If I hadn’t gotten involved, I would have gone through life probably being perfectly satisfied to go to the medical society parties and it would have been very, very dull. I would have been bored silly.” (Dr. Jane Hodgson, late abortionist)

“Sorrow, quite apart from the sense of shame, is exhibited in some way by virtually every woman for whom I performed an abortion, and that’s 20,000 as of 1995. The sorrow is revealed by the fact that most women cry at some point during the experience… The grieving process may last from several days to several years… Grief is sometimes delayed… The grief may lie sublimated and dormant for years.” (Dr. Susan Poppema, abortionist)

“If I see a case…after twenty weeks, where it frankly is a child to me, I really agonize over it because the potential is so imminently there…On the other hand, I have another position, which I think is superior in the hierarchy of questions, and that is “who owns this child?” It’s got to be the mother.” (Dr. James T. McMahon, abortionist)

“We know that it’s killing, but the state permits killing under certain circumstances.” (Dr. Neville Sender, abortionist)

Saving Innocent Lives, One Woman at a Time

This is national "Right to Life" month and this coming Sunday I (pastor Gene Helsel) will preach the last sermon in a short series on abortion and the sanctity of life. This past week I had the privilege of gathering together with some of my fellow Wenatchee area pastors and listen to the testimonies of some local ladies who had abortions several years ago, and, via a class called, Surrendering the Secret, were able to tap into the amazing grace of God. Listening to theses dear sisters was one of the most profoundly stirring and edifying experiences of my adult Christian life. We pastors sat riveted to our seats as we listened to testimonies that recounted a handful of tear-soaked journeys from regret to rejoicing. And as we did, we were wondrously awash in the mercy of our Heavenly Father as again, and again, these brave women demonstrated with their stories Paul's astounding declaration that "where sin abounds, grace abounds all the more." I sincerely wish that I could publish every one of their heartfelt offerings, but I think what follows will suffice to give you a taste of the gravity and glory of that humble gathering.

Here, in its entirety, is the first talk that we heard. The talks that followed were generally a little more biographical than this one. But this first talk set both set the tone and provided a theological framework for everything that followed. Please join me in praying that God will increasingly use these and similar testimonies in the great struggle against abortion-on-demand to "save innocent lives, one woman at at time."

As I went through this class for post-abortive women, what became increasingly clear to me were the far-reaching, and common themes with each woman who has made this choice. 

The class is called Surrendering the Secret—and I had never realized this terrible part of my history was actually a secret.  It had been something so heinous, it was unspeakable.  As an individual, I was able to seize the grace of forgiveness offered thru Christ – but further than that was unable to really look at this ‘issue’ as a ‘landscape.’ – with so many others out there like me, who had walked a very similar path.  It was like we were all ghosts, survivors of something we had done to ourselves, and to our children, but invisible to one another—phantoms, sitting by each other, but never speaking of this terrible, most influential event in each of our lives.